Tuhan, hadiahkanlah, kasihMu kepadaku.
Tuhan, kurniakanlah, rinduku kepadMu.
Morga aku tahu, syukurku adalah milikMu.

I had told myself and was determined to let things go. But everytime i try to do so, i get stuck between the thoughts of 'is this the right thing to do?' and 'am i running away from my responsibilities?' Damnit la. I just cannot even get a simple task done, let alone handle more bigger and challenging problems in my life. Its nowonder why i'm such a pathetic plight, where i keep imagining that help will come when it won't. I need to help myself but i just can't to do so. I don't know just what is wrong with me. And things seem to be getting worse. With people coming back just to make me fall again. And school which is getting *insert word here* as the days goes by. I no longer know what word to use to best describe my life now. But i'll be fine, so long as i still have God above anything else. I might need to mia, so here's an early good luck wish just in case : All the best to everyone for the exams.

despite how hard i tried, it still comes to this in the end.
justtellme howcanibearwiththepain.