I've decided to start blogging again. I know this is the probably the 10th time i've said this, but yeah, i'm saying it again. This time round, i'll try to keep it going for as long as possible. I know also that due to my inactivity at this blog, i've lost a handful of my usual active blog readers. But who cares, i'll just blog for the sake of keeping this site alive.

The month of March is coming to an end. In a few days time, it'll be the beginning of the 4th month of the year 2009. Like every other year, i'll occasionally take a trip down memory lane and think back at what i've been doing so far this year. Somehow or rather, this year the feeling seems so different. Everything looks colourless and there is no air of excitement or whatsoever like i do get each and every 18years that has passed. I've been wondering why is it like this, is it due to the changing me, or issit due to something else? Till now, i still can't find an answer.

The year 2008 was the worse ever year for me. Its a year where i have to deal with losses. Its the year where i had countless number of sleepless nights and its also the year where i've cried out probably more than a few litres of tears. When the year 2009 began, i made a resolution to myself that i would breakthrough from the year 2008 and start afresh once again. But that never really happened. Somehow or rather, i brought along the agony, the saddening thoughts and the miserable emotions from the year 2008 into this brand new year. Then again, the darkest hour of the year 2008 came in the final third of the year. Thus it is not surprising the post troubles and problems are being dragged into the next year.

Life just feels so different since the year 2008. Everything seems to have changed so fast, that it pushed me down on my backside. I took quite some time to get up on my feet again, but after that, everything around me seems to have changed. Something is missing in my life and i'm not sure what that is. Life sure is full of challenges. But sometimes you get over those challenges, only to find yourself facing a much greater challenge. And God knows what comes next.